Saturday, June 14, 2014

All the Happiness Sucked Out of My Life and Never Happy Again

Well what if Hunter walked away from you?


I realized I had asked a question that was personal but don't reverse the topic on me about me. That is exactly what happened. And thinking about this makes me sick to my stomach. 

When you wait for a certain person and barely thinking about anyone else for six years you realize just how badly you have it for them. So for her to walk away would feel like a Dementor had kissed me. 

I would still be living but I am sure I would walk around like I had no soul. I would lose my zest for life but I wouldn't end my life. I would still do things with my girls but I can honestly say it would be hard to do so with how much they look like Hunter.

I would be like Odette. I would let Hunter walk away if she really didn't love me anymore or if I hurt her so bad she felt like she had to leave our relationship. Though, I know we have overcome so much already in our 6 months of being together. 

Our six months are different than others. We have known each other for years but just didn't date so the months milestones kind of go out the door for us. We have a relationship built on trust, strength, friendship, and love.

She shines so bright to me, so for her to walk out I would feel like a dementor was not only near but also giving me their famous kiss. 

No chocolate would ever help me.



My ice queen and I however have many years of Disney World together left to go.



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